Saturday, February 04, 2006

Can't Think Straight

must be that time of the month again... I'd love to find that article again, the one on a scientific study where men and women were asked to keep a mood diary, and it found that not only did men have a monthly mood cycle, but the mood swings were greater than the womens. we just try to hide it more, most of the time. I'm more objective about it now than I might've been at 17, when some days I'd be so moody I... did lots of things. none of which involved human contact.

And i guess i still do that, only I'm not feeling that bad this time round. that's mainly because of the excitement of going to Hawkers, but the combination of both has just ripped my mind out of the time it's meant to be in - August 2000. I can't write a word in without it feeling like it's from the now, or really about the holiday, or about Ez. Yes, a year on and and still think about her every day. Learn from the past and all that, but this summer has just reminded me how boring summers are without a girlfriend, school/uni, or regular work. ah, melancholy. at least I picked up once this summer. can still feel it in the base of my skull, that primitive desire. posted by Keegan at 4:23 pm

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