Monday, October 10, 2005

No, Really

this essay is sickening me. it's badly written, poorly structured, weakly argued and filled with filler. It tastes like I'm out of my depth and it feels like something i would have written first year. it's incredibly frustrating because I know how well I can write when the circumstances allow, and here I have to drag myself to create something that doesn't deserve to exist. I worked a lot over the break, but it wasn't uni work. The material gains are nothing compared to the intrinsic value of a few well written essays that will never exist.

I don't even want to read it after I reach the word count, for fear I'll erase what has come to pass, like i've already done once thus far. a couple of days ago, mind. I know I write better under pressure, but the pressure's not there like it has been for so long. today I don't really care if I fail everything, there's another degree to fall back on, and I know that even this abysmal effort will still eventually produce a pass.

that's it, i'm going home. I don't work any better here than I do there, but at least i do work here. I'll be staying up all night to get something done. posted by Keegan at 4:35 pm

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