Sunday, October 02, 2005

Fucking Brilliant, Dickhead. (Self-Referential)

24 hours after I woke up, 18 hours after work, i happen to glance at the screen just before walking into the kitchen, and someone says to kevin on msn while he's distracted drying his tips

"hey, have you heard about the bali bombings?"

here, I commit a massive error in judgement, cross far too many lines than I'm allowed, because it's been three years since it happened and I've been trying to work on a joke surrounding my own injury of 2002 and the attacks. a lame attempt at the sort of black humour that has kept this old chestnut limping about like a zombie joke...

"Would you Take Ecstasy?" (No.) "Anna Wood."

Not only have I missed one of the largest attacks on australians in indonesia since the embassy bombing, I've done so in a callous way to the sister of someone who is in bali right now, using kevin's MSN (just putting my name at the end of a sentence isn't a disclaimer), my head is pounding and I just can't sleep with this on my mind.

I've got tears in my eyes I feel so stupid. I just had no idea. it's not even funny anyway, and I know better than to do something like that than without permission.

So I've just donated $50 to Medicins Sans Frontieres . my tips for the day were $35, but I barely worked this last shift, so i'm giving it to someone who can use it. I can't take back what I've done, but I can make someone's life a little better somewhere. might as well have burnt it for all I would have done with it anyway.

Lesson is: Don't have your first drink at 6am. It doesn't make any sense, and neither will you. posted by Keegan at 10:23 am

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