Wednesday, August 03, 2005

I Want To Paint It Black

drumming away in my head all day this Rolling Stones song, an inescapable beat and sentiment, I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes, I have to turn my head until my darkness goes...

well not really, I see them walk by and I have to turn before I'm caught staring in awe. thing is, it's a different experience separate from any relationship, only hazily recollected in the first days of first year at uni.
And it's even different from that, judging from the diary entries scrawled in the back of old lecture pads, ripped out and stapled together, hidden in the dark recesses of my room. desires have changed, and I'm a little more picky. well, when it comes to seeking a relationship. I could fall in love every day at uni. gonna be hard to give it up, but then I don't have to jump straight into a career, there's the obligitory backpacker's adventure, I've not worked in nearly enough bars, this thing called "life experience" I keep hearing about. doesn't mean I have to do them alone though, but at this point I wouldn't dread it. I don't fear singledom. I can wait for the right one, though one has to be pro-active sometimes. posted by Keegan at 10:11 pm

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