Sunday, July 17, 2005

Lucy, You Got Some 'Splainin To Do...

First, More Stallions. Canadian Stallion, Mullet Stallion, and from wednesday Black Stallion.

Second, No Excuses. I'll stand by my actions, Alcohol only influenced the choices I made. Now sober, I would state for the record that I would have done the same thing in that situation.

I lived up to the Slutty Stallion way, adding another link in the map that binds our group together, and caused a fair amount of ruckus for doing so. Though the Little One in the Yellow Car had some valid points, driving up to crackneck didn't affect a thing. we'd been talking since we got there, drving away to crackneck gave us both time to think, especially considering how long it took me to find the bloody lookout. lil' yellow pulled up as I was about to return, having just got off the phone to the Sentimental Stallion, and returning to the party to sort it out with him.

Highly amusing situation getting 'busted'. I'm seeing some venturer tendencies recurring in these situations, and all that I'd learnt over a two year relationship with the Ex didn't change a thing now it's over. I loved a girl back in the movement, something passionate that I could never take the first step towards. So I took that step wherever I could find it, and it never felt right cos it wasn't with her. Racing from one doomed relationship to the next, knowing that no matter how much I wanted this to be right, It wouldn't be her and I couldn't make it work. Now no-one's filling the gap she left, I'm left without direction and these old habits that just don't have any point to them.

I am a Slut. not ashamed, nor proud, just am. I'm a terrible sleaze, and I'm planning to make more of an effort to be less so, though it won't change my slutty core. As long as I'm without that burning desire, slutty behaviour will be in search of that passion.

Beratement welcome, leave a comment or whenever I see y'all be sure to give me a piece of your mind. Sentimental was closer to her afterwards than he ever would've been had I done nothing, and I'm at peace with that. posted by Keegan at 11:47 am

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